Domain 2 Personal Development
I have been burdened by this placement recently...just wondering if my teacher agrees with anything I do (just to name an example). She began this morning by asking if she was giving me enough feedback. She said she had been thinking about it, and she says a lot of things to work on, and she didn't know if it was too much. I told her the more feedback she could give me, the better I would become. I was just thinking last night and this morning how much I just want to be mentored through this. I know you are definitely in that role, but I want to be believed in my the people that are with me and see me every day. Perhaps I have come off as too much of a threat or something, but I just want to be encouraged. I don't mean that selfishly, just innately (if that makes sense). My disposition and midterm were positive; she shared all great things. She didn't score me perfect in everything, and those areas are definitely ones in which I need to grow and with with I competely agreed.
I also made more connections with the teachers at lunch today; one in particular. I had also talked with her out at recess yesterday so that helped a lot!
I got to know my struggling student a bit more today. I rearranged the room, and I think it is a much better fit for my students. If I have my way, it will stay like that till I leave. My 4 main guys that I need to keep an eye on are easily accessible, and students are not in groups, therefore, eliminating distractions. They did so well today. I am learning to pace better. I did not get everyone done yesterday or today that I wanted, but I am doing better and better.
I am learning that the more I try to "cram" in, the less learning and organization takes place. At the end of school today, things were crazy because my teacher went all the way up to the bell! That makes it difficult to check assignment books and get students organized. But, this morning, most of my students remained organized; their desks seemed less cluttered and...OH! It was just wonderful!
I had a student try to make himself sick today...because he didn't want to do something and then wanted to go to the nurse. :)
I know that when my teacher is in the room, and I know she is watching me, I am more selective of what I do/say/how I handle situations, only because I am afraid of what she will think. I know what I want to do/think/say, but I don't know if she'll agree. You're right...it's differing philosophies. She had told me before that she had worked to keep the green folders/assignment books on desks, so I don't know why I wanted to try without asking her; that was my bad.
I will see you in just 2 days!
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Olivia,
ReplyDeleteI can definitely say that God is challenging you daily! You are growing so much and for that your future students will be grateful:). It is hard to humble ourselves but it is necessary in order to grow and become that which God is molding us to be. I appreciate your willingness to embrace each situation (no matter how difficult it may be) and find ways to grow and better yourself.
I know some lessons have been hard however; you will now be better aware of situations in your future schools. You will work with teachers who differ in philosophies and that is ok...even good (as long as it is not harmful to the students) because one way we grow is challenging one another and understanding why we believe what we do.
I'm praying for you!!
Prof. Forshey
PS I am working on your e-folio materials sorry for the delay. Do you have the first half mapped out/put together? Let me know if there is some way I can help.
I heard about the conference...Dr. Seaborn raved about how well it went:)! Looking forward to seeing you in two days!